XOXO.♥

Black swan

2011-03-03T19:04:00.000+08:00

AHHH! And I watched this show! Omg.

http://vigilantcitizen.com/?p=6223

BLACK SWAN.

The breakup.

2010-12-11T03:03:00.004+08:00

By human nature, people tend to judge things by the surface. From what they perceive things to be. To what they think is morally wrong to them. How wrong is wrong? How do you judge if it's very wrong or just a mild mistake? Is it made of what you believe is wrong? Do you know what is wrong? Are there sets of universal rules telling you if it's wrong and the severity of the wrong doings you did?

When two people are together, it is a both party thing. It isn't whereby one side just take and another just give. To me, love is about both sides and mainly, feelings. In a relationship, there should always be consideration for the other party and yourself too. But when one party doesn't feel the same way anymore, it is very torturous to be together. By lying to yourself that it's gonna work, you're gonna waste hell lots of time trying to make it work. Deep inside your heart, you already know that it's not gonna work out, so why are you still dragging things? Isn't there this saying which goes, 长痛不如短痛? Two people go into a r/s and stay in it cause there is love. Without it, what is it?

So what makes someone lose the initial passionate love? There are a lot of factors behind it. More than what outsiders can see/perceive. For every relationship, every quarrel or breakup in it would cause a crack to form. You can mend it but the crack would still be there. Those issues, the way you two quarrel or fight, the things which he/she does to irritate you, the issues you have against your partner. No one knows, except you. Sooner or later, these things are gonna pile up and turn nasty. Outsiders can only see the surface and think the cause of breakup is due to this or that. But seriously, do they know the real truth, the real factors or the real reasons behind the breakup? If they aren't sure, why must they judge? A relationship is just between two people but why must they step in? Why can't they mind their own relationships or their own matters instead of spending time judging and thinking whoever fault that is? They feel it's a certain way, but is it really true? Did find the REAL parties in the relationship to reconfirm? NO! So it's very unfair for some outsider (by that I mean people who are not the parties in the r/s) to judge or think things badly.

About my current issue, I've only got some words to say:

1.Seriously, I'm very vexed about these matters already. By judging and giving comments, you are making it worse for me.

2. As an outsider, I hope you can mind your own matters and try not to put blame any parties involved.

3. Also, since you're an outsider who doesn't know my r/s problems and issues, please do not judge so quickly. Give me a chance to explain. Come ask me. If I feel you're mature enough to understand why it happened, I would tell you.

4. There are a lot, a lot of factors and reason behind this breakup. Of course there would be triggers too. Please do not think anyhow and ASK ME.

5. I hope you all can move on and not judge since me and him have already agreed to be friends and just friends only. If we can move on, why can't you all outsiders do?

6. If you feel as though I'm playing with his feelings, then ponder over these question instead: If I were to play w/ his feelings, why did I spend like 1 year plus playing w/ him? Shouldn't I moved on already?

I'm sorry if I offended anyone with my tone of words. I am currently writing this in a very tranquil state of mind so I am not saying anything malicious. Neither do I have any intention of hurting or shooting anyone. I just had enough of all these and I wanna put a stop to this once and for all.

2010-12-08T19:39:00.000+08:00

Hello. This blog is rotting. & I've got PMS so I've figured out that this isn't kinda the best time to blog.

Just trying to find excuses. :x HAHAHAH.

BYEBYE.

2010-11-13T00:33:00.002+08:00

If I don't mean it, I won't even bother writing it. So if you don't know what's on my mind, please stop thinking I only wrote that to entertain you. I write it cause it describes my feelings. It didn't even occur to me that you'll read it.

Your words are hurting me but you don't even know it. You only write words in a fit of anger, but have you ever thought from my shoes? You think you're faultless? Or you think I have a larger fault? I think it should be the opposite. Think carefully, what promises you gave to me that time. Now what's happened? I really had enough of your over sensitiveness.

Get well soon.

2010-11-01T13:18:00.002+08:00

Don't really have the mood to blog now but I feel like updating this space. Visited my granny at TTSH yesterday. I nearly cried. It was really heart wrenching to see her lying in the hospital bed with the needle poke into her hand while being put on the drip. She seems to have slimmed down too. And she looks tired. Gonna buy something for her to do and read when I visit her later. Okay. Enough about her. Don't really wanna share her condition over here. Sorry.

photos taken some time ago when I was too bored on bus.

I hope she gets well soon. Bye.

I lead a sad life.

2010-10-28T22:19:00.004+08:00

I've the feeling to blog. I don't know why. I just want a place to chat with myself, to put my thoughts in written form and to let me actually have something interesting to do.

What I've been thinking and wondering in my mind for these past few days. You can skipt this part.-------

Recently, I am feeling kinda messed up. I don't know the exact reason, but I think I can blame it on stress, can I?

Life seems normal, but I don't know why I don't feel good. Kinda moody at times, kinda feel like bursting into tears at times. What's wrong with me!

Please try to cheer up and stop being an emo cause it freaks people out and affects people's mood too. Thanks.

Okay, end of thoughts in my brain.

I feel sad!!

Okay, pictures. Not really nice ones cause I'm feeling rather lousy and inferior at the time I was snapping these. Haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

That's all.

And my whole body aches. God knows why.

Oh, and I forgot! SNSD's new MV, Hoot is out! HAHAH. Yay.

Huhu! 훗

I love seohyun, yoona, taeyeon, sunny, hyo yeon, yuri, soo young, jessica, tiffany!

Hahah. Tataz.

2010-10-25T14:15:00.001+08:00

I've gotten the book! <3 yay.
The title of the book is "THiS iS MY STORY."
Exactly the way I type it, by Kassandra Kong. It's a good read. Go get it!

UPDATE.

2010-10-21T19:47:00.003+08:00

Hello! It's been quite some time since I last blogged. School's started and it's really tiring, so I didn't really feel like blogging. Classes are pretty much the same except that I've got a sucky MIS faci. Robertoh calls her the annoying old orange. HAHAHA. But other than her, I've got not much complains. :>

Not much interesting or earth shattering news to share now. Just some everyday pictures to post. There you go...

Derrick! Hahah, captured some candid and funny shots of him. Hehehe.

HAHAHAHAHAAH.

Ugly photos taken today. Too bored till I started taking my phone out and snap snap snap...

That sums up my blog post I guess. Will blog more next time! Go read quotes! Anyway, there's this Singaporean author who wrote a book about sex abuse or something like that. Like her boyfriend keep pressing her for sex and dumped her after she gave it to him. I wanna buy that book. It seems like the author has many heartfelt words written in them. Interesting read! But I forgot the title. -_- Hahaha.

BYEBYE.

Just wanna say I love you.

2010-10-09T01:11:00.002+08:00

Pic spam cause there are lots of photos waiting to be uploaded! It's just gonna be a post with lots of pics, not really wordy..

Photos when me and Hozhi went for roberto's birthday.

9 wang ye chu shi. Lol. Only took the flower lorry. SO VERY NICE. I bet you'll turn blind or have a splitting headache if you look at it for too long.

Coco the gou gou. He loves me! Hahah. Cause when I returned to Francis house after chu shi he was so happy to see me he leapt and stayed very near me! Heheh.

PP presentation in school early in the morning. Baby was kind enough to wake up early with me and acc me to school and wait for me till I finish presenting. Lots of love! (:

Marieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Sisterly love! Lol, I bought that for her as a birthday gift and got myself one too. (:

How my google chrome looks like right now. Pretty!!

Anyway, quite a lot of things has been occurring lately. Thanks baby for being w/ me and not forsaking me even though I've done something wrong.

I asked him: Why don't you leave me since I did wrong? He said: So what if I leave you? I 'll be alone and you'll be alone. I said: So? Why not? He replied: Cause I love you.

Very sweet of him right? Really thanks and a trillion love.

I want a perfect love.

2010-10-01T21:44:00.003+08:00

Do you sometimes have the feeling where you're very tired? When you just wanna give everything up and just lie down and rest? Take a short break?

I don't wanna point fingers or say who's right or who's wrong this time round. I am tired of explaining and telling how I feel.

How would you feel if someone always fail to listen to how you explain, how you're trying hard to make things work. You curb your temper, you tried doing things which will make them happy and avoid those which would upset them.

Do you see it?

But on the other hand, they keep making it worse. They get too possessive. They try to forbid in lots of things that you really wanna try and do. Just a text and they will think overly much and show a black face. You return home late and they get angry. Yes, you know you made them worry, they have every right to be angry, but can they just let you go wild once in a while? Can't they just not keep being angry after you've apologised a million times?

In the past I never do apologise, but now, cause of you I said sorry, for things which sometimes I feel that I never did any wrong. Just cause I don't wanna quarrel. I hate cold wars. I rather all the times we spent tgt are happy ones. But do you accept those sorries?

This time round, you wanted a short break, so I gave it to you. It's for the best of us. Maybe after the break we'll get an answer which works best for us? Maybe we just need a rest so that we can take a longer journey tgt? But why are you now making me worry about you by the facebook posts you wrote? Why can't we just let ourselves calm down so we could walk tgt even further?

Tell me what you want from me.

The hardest choices in life.

2010-09-29T00:44:00.006+08:00

Choices, something which everyone would have to make everyday. From the simplest stuffs like what you're gonna eat to making important life choices like whether you should take a chance and really go for it. Sometimes, in life you'll have lots of choices. Mug real hard for exams or slack till the day of exams? To ruin your life or to make it really worthwhile to live it? Brighten up someone's day or trample on people's feelings?

I, for instance, can' really make decisions when there are choices. I am scared of regretting what I chose. Therefore, I usually let people choose it for me and go along with it. That's not really smart or wise for me to do that but truth is I'm a worrywart by nature and I would keep weighing the pros & cons in my head. My mind would be fried by the end of the day and explode in a million pieces as a result. I don't wanna stress myself too much sometimes but it's something built in me. I am paranoid, easily nervous, prone to pangs of terror when things don't go the way I planned it exactly in my head. I cry easily, I tend to overthink and imagine the worse scenarios. But that's me. So I'll usually have heart to heart talks with people who are close to me. Really open up to them. People who know how I truly am and accept it. People who actually cares and understands the reason why I felt this way. People who will not find my thinking weird, but try to find ways to soothe me and calm me down. These people in my life are scarce. These people would be the ones I would treasure and not let go. These people are those whom I'll be willing to go the extra mile for, be it my help or to keep our r/s tight. Some know that they already are. Thanks for those hugs and kind words which always makes me feel better a million times. (:

I found these quotes which I've gotta agree with them.

There are two choices in life, to accept the conditions as they exist, or accept the responsibility for changing them. - Dennis Waitley

You're the person who has to decide. Whether you'll do it or toss it aside, you're the person who makes up your mind. Whether you'll lead or linger behind. Whether you'll try for the goal that's afar. Or just be contented staying where you are. - Edgar A. Guest

Find this really inspiring. I'll try making decisions! Keyword is TRY.

In every single thing you do, you're choosing a direction. Your life is a product of choices. - Dr Kathleen Hall.

Bye!

We'll be young forever.

2010-09-20T00:05:00.004+08:00

I'm hooked onto Katy perry's teenage dream. It keeps replaying in my head. & I kept singing out. I find her so so so pretty! Her big eyes & sweet face. Hahah.. But Bby & Vio doesn't really agree with me... ...

Anyway, I spent my Saturday at lion dance. Luckily for wan theng's company. Or else I might die out of boredom. Didn't really do anything during that period of time. Cause we're helping other troupes and the main reason why they need our help is cause of manpower. We girls have no strength to carry those heavy poles. Laughs.

So we spent the whole lot of time taking pics! Over 100 + pics. Fun okay. When we girls have nothing to do, we camwhore to pass time. And boy, it really flies. HAHAHA.

The pictures are all kinda jumbled up so, heh heh.

Extra pic taken today.

Anyway, bby scared the shit out of me ytd! Only Vio & I were at home. Then, we heard loud knocking voices on our door. They were short series of knocking. We didn't even dare to go out to the living room to open the door cause we've already switched off the lights and shut all windows. Then bby called me to check for his slippers. I didn't even dare to. And it never occurred to me that bby would be outside cause he said he was at home dota-ing. Stupid me fell for it! Then he shouted and I know immediately it was not some drunkard or bangala at our doorstep. It's stupid bby! Hahah. But I was so glad/surprised/shocked to see him. Fancy him surprising/shocking me like that. (:

1: Anyway, I've got a really funny picture of me! If I've nothing to blog or when my mood feels good, I'm gonna post it and let you have a good laugh at it. ^^

2: Have the sudden urge of sketching cause I just bought sketching pencils! An extra thing for me to do, yay! Gonna find some nice pics on Tumblr to sketch on. (:

3: I love going to my grandma house & play with my bro & cousins! <3

4. I love Aaron bby for being sweet on Sat. <3

Tataz!

Update!

2010-09-17T00:51:00.002+08:00

Aaron says he's the happiest when I bo wei gong. -.-

Nothing much happened. Went to play pool with vio, neo zhi, xy & fringeless. Ah gua yahoo.com didn't come. Zzz.

Pictures!

That's all. Gonna continue chatting on the phone w/ bby!

P/s: I hate you, copycat. Get a life, be original. It's not flattering to be copied by someone or copying someone. _|_

2010-09-14T21:49:00.002+08:00

Had a clique chalet on Mon with Yuhan, Liyin, Bell, Isaac, Vincent, Nelson, Joelyn, Ewen and Adeline. It was on the day of UT. Damn tired. Has to rush home and head out to the meeting place. Played drinking games & truth or dare. Didn't sleep till the next day cause we had to check out at1030. But all of us can't tahan alr, so all went home at 7 plus 8? Thanks Ewen for sending us to Hougang. (: Overall, it was pretty fun late at night but I think the bbq part failed. HAHAHA.

Nothing much to blog about, holidays for me all the wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! :D

A really long update!

2010-09-09T01:46:00.003+08:00

I've just realised, I've got tons of pictures. But I can't even recall when I got them taken, so I can't really describe the day. Anyway, there's nothing much for me to blog about. Only blogged cause waner said we're both in the same plight. As in we had never blogged for like 34483794587 years. HAHAH. I know, exaggeration is overly much but I don't care. Hahah.

Pictures.

1.Taken some day long long ago when Aaron stayed over. Love those days when he still have his school holidays and he would come over to my house. We would load some nice movie and watch it together till we feel tired and go to sleep. Or have supper at crazy timings like 3! (: But all's gone. Kinda sad ahhh. ):

2. Baked cookies during midnight cause I can't sleep. Nocturnal creature. Hehe.

The batter. Doesn't look very appealing I know cause I added too much cocoa powder! But it's nice, or as Aaron thinks so. Or the opposite, as my mum thinks so.

Made 3 batches of cookies.

Special shaped 'A' cookie for Aaron.

'V' for my mum and vio.

'F' for myself.

♥ for bby!

3. Grandma house. Bro playing wii. Mini oreos. Vio's new specs.

Serious wii addict.

Kawaii or what! I only saw mini cheese ritz. Lol. Which I love!! Better than the big one, IMO.

My cute cousin. I asked him to do the face for me. HAHAHA.

Skinny monkey. Haiz.

Another one.

Lao niu's new specs! Radddd in colourrrrr. ROFL. Ris low. :x

4. The cutie pie.

My rabbit again. I didn't even put his hand like this. It just naturally falls into place. Such a cute boy. (:

5. Some day which I really don't remember doing anything.

Nice? I took it for Vio. (:

6. Random stupid ugly photo no makeup photo of me.

7. Pool with Vio, neo zhi, ah bang and yahoo.com. ROFL @ the funny nicknames.

Sibeh ah beng, wo paaaaa! Kidding. Hehe. They keep standing there talking ever so loudly, it was damn irritating. I bet they swallowed mikes or amplifiers. Wtheck. Nuisance.

8. Library book which suits Chinhuat's girlf aptly. ROFL.

BYEBYE. I'm off. Damn tired to be blogging and msning with so many people. I'm gonna concentrate.

Tata. (:

2010-09-04T16:40:00.003+08:00

Went out with Waner yesterday. Was fun! Catched .

It was quite nice. And very funny. Hahah. I laughed all the way. (:

Anyway, didn't really take lots of pictures cause my eyes were damn ugly, sore and swollen. Haiz. ):

Also, cut my hair! Vio says it looks nicer. Happy.

Pictures taken w/ waner. (:

My hair.

When my hair was not cut yet. Lol..

Anyway, went out with Vio again to pool cause we saw an exciting someone. LOl. I played for like 5 or more hours straight. My legs are damn tired. After that went out to eat with Vio's friends. Hanging out with them was quite fun. Enjoyed it! And kind old them still sent us home after that.

Byebye!

Btw, I am just typing nonsense because I can't think properly. Lol..

Cookie dozerrr.

2010-08-28T18:46:00.004+08:00

Hello! It's been quite some time since I last blogged. Been addicted to an app called cookie dozer. Lol. I have always been biased against this game as I thought it was just some stupid game which I couldn't be bothered with. Hahah. I've always been reluctant to download it despite the countless attempts Aaron tried. Till one fine day Aaron decided he would download the coin version (coin dozer) and put it under his profile which I've created for him. Then I decided to give the game the first and last try cause I was thinking of deleting it. Then I got addicted! Lol. Seriously, I spent hours and hours playing that game and waiting for the coins to regenerate. Then I saw the cuter version (cookie dozer) and I downloaded it. Now, I keep playing this game and leaving my poddy on, waiting for the cookies to regenerate cause the regenerating time while your offline is 2 mins and the time when you're online is only 30 secs. This way I can earn more cookies and finish my treat collection!

Show you some of the treats I've collected. (:

I've finished collecting all kinds of cheesecakes. Therefore, I've got the star.

Cupcakes.

Pies & chocolates!

FUN & great for killing time! :D

I always have a craving for cookies, chocolates & cheesecakes whenever I play this game cause the graphics looks so real. Hahah.

Anyway, went to catch 'the expendables' at Plaza sing first before going to Chinatown for the FIRST kbox session with Aaron alone. First time leh and the last I think. Haiz. ): He doesn't like singing.

The expendables was quite nice, not too bad. But I felt the A team was better. Similar storyline but different casts.

Pictures taken while travelling to those destinations.

Pictures quality not too good as we used the front camera of my phone.

Saw a rainbow on a certain day at my house. Actually there are two rainbows, but I can't capture it with my phone camera. ): Lazy to use my digi cam.

Drew on Aaron's hand too. Lol. Damn huge cause he also drew on mine.

Both of us very wuliao.

Interesting foods.

The chocolates molded in the shape of a spoon.

Doraemon I-don't-know-what which Vio captured.

Actually, I've got one hilarious photo of Vio wearing funny test specs at the optics shop but she forbid me to post. Awwwww! Hahah.

Grandma house.

Walk at punggol park.

That's all! Byebye.

2010-08-22T02:19:00.002+08:00

Went to Hougang plaza with Vio sis. Played pool. Was very happy. Hahah. It has been quite some time since I touched a pool stick. (:

Picturessss.

Kawaii rabbit. I hug it to sleep everyday. (:

Mundane.

2010-08-21T00:57:00.005+08:00

Nothing inspirational for me to blog about. Hmm ... ...

Haven't being doing anything interesting these few days, just watched snsd videos on snsdkorean.wordpress.com. Hahaha. I know I lead a boring life. But they entertain me when I'm bored. Also watched a lot of movies via internet. Watched 200 pound beauty 2 times, sex and the city 1 & 2 both 2 times, Mr & Mrs Smith (Old show I know, but I like!), nanny mcPhee returns. Yeah, that's all I can think of now. Don't know how I can be such a movie freak. ):

Just helped Vio sis with her social studies homework, can't believe I still can be of some help to her! That made me happy for a short while. At least my brains are still working. ^^

Anyway, borrowed some library books and I've only touched 2 out of 5 books? Don't know why I don't really like reading now. Very very sad. Nowadays, when I go into the library, I don't even know which genre I like reading. (Although I still feel very happy stepping into the library.) Hahah. Shall try reading another book tomorrow. Have to get back my love of reading books or else my English might deteriorate and it would suck.

Got to know something interesting while reading and explaining an email to my mum's friend send her. Paradoxes of the English language:

There is no egg in eggplant, nor ham in hamburger; neither apple or pine in pineapple. And while no one knows what is in a hotdog, you can be pretty sure it isn't canine. English muffins were not invented in England nor French fries in France. Sweetmeats are candies, while sweetbreads, which aren't sweet, are meat.

We take English for granted. But if we explore its paradoxes, we find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square, and guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

If you wanna read up more you can go to this website: http://www.greaterthings.com/Humor/English_paradoxes.htm

Okay, I've really nothing to blog about now. Mundane life I lead right now.

Maybe gonna read up some nice inspiring quotes

Byebye!

2010-08-18T14:04:00.001+08:00

Only one word for you: Disappointment.

Don't want to need you.

iOS 4.0

2010-08-17T12:58:00.003+08:00

I'm in my house, all alone! Lol, I can live wih that. Ain't gonna die out of boredom or loneliness. Sometimes, I really like hanging out alone in my house. Anyway, some pictures to post before I forget.

This was when me & vio went out. Hahah, I've trained her to like hanging out in the library although our genre for books are different. (:

Next is k box singing session w/ our family & relatives. (:

Only got lao niu pic cause the others taken with me are really cui. My eyes damn sore.

7th month praying below derrick's house.

Girls who attended.

I can drink a lot of liquid. Lol. Drank 2 and a half cups milk tea in a few hours!

First cup: Lao niu on the printing.

Second cup too! See the different straw colours and you will know I'm not cheating.

Half cup was when me and aaron shared. No pic of that. LOl.

Lol. And I've upgraded my poddy to iOS 4.0

Although I have to re sync my poddy and create the playlists and pictures all over again, it's quite worth it. The interface looks even prettier and you can but the applications together in a folder which you can rename. This beats having pages after pages of apps. (:

This is how my poddy looks like now!

Anyway, got to learn the cool trick of screenshot-ting any page or anything on poddy by theng. Thanks, that was a really cool thing.

Okay, off to watch my show now. Byebye.

Two faced & perverts suck cock.

2010-08-11T09:28:00.003+08:00

I've got to rant todayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. If you don't wanna see it, kindly just scroll down.

#1. Two faced people.

Why are there people who adds people on facebook when they hate them? They can bitch about them behind their backs and then add them on facebook, like their statuses and even comment them. Like wthell? It really grosses me out. I am scared of these kind of people. Fake!

YUCK level: 8.5/10

#2. Perverts.

Usually, when old uncles/gross guys look at you, you feel really disgusted. However, you can't do anything except giving them the eye. The look. Then they will know you're not interested and fuck off. But, some are really thick skinned perverts who don't know when to fuck off. Even when you've moved away after they sit near you. Even after they gave you the eye. Even after you have put your bag beside you so they couldn't sit beside you. Fuck, this kind should really die and burn in hell, 18th level.

YUCK level: 10/10

Unluckily, on the first day of the 7th (Lunar) month, I met with one today. Yuck. Squeezed at the bus stop in between me and another person even though there isn't room for another. Moreover, he has a big build. Not fat, but still.......... Immediately, I moved away. I don't like sitting near people whom I am not close/friends with. That thick skinned bastard still moved near me shamelessly. Urgh. I moved away somemore. I swear I see him fidget, moving nearer again. Luckily, my bus came. Then I board the bus. I chose my usual seat which was further back. he sat near the front seats. He then turned around, saw me and immediately moved to the seats near me. I was thinking: Fuck, do you know how to fucking fuck off? Zzz. Then I put my bag and laptop beside me so he can't sit beside me. Phew. & he got off at the stop before the IMH. I was damn scared, disgusted and totally grossed out. Angry too, I guess.

Luckily baby was there to accompany by sms what I should do. And comfort me. Or else I really might cry.

END OF RANT.

That's the end. Enjoyed my celebration with baby yesterday. It was bitter sweet, I shall say. Love love sweetie boy. (:

I love you, boy!

2010-08-10T01:38:00.004+08:00

To my dear boy,

It's the 10th yet again. So gonna dedicate this post specially to you, Aaron Ho Zhi Xiong! My bby bby bby! (:

Never thought we'll be able to last so long. Never thought that we could tolerate each other craps (mine is way more than yours) so much. Moreover, fights and quarrels keep surfacing up. All those moments we spent together, it has been a lot, really. Ups & downs are all affected by you. Mood & feelings are all linked to you. Problems and happy news are shared with you first.

It isn't easy to find someone whom you can share your all with.

Someone who will cry with/for/because of you.

Someone who truly cares about you even though he/she ain't your family.

Someone who bothers so much about you.

Someone whose small little actions can touch your heart.

Someone whose smile can melt every part of your body.

Someone whose tears can make you feel so vulnerable and helpless.

Someone whose hug can bring warmth to your entire body in a totally different way.

Thank you for changing the way I live my life. Thanks for caring for me so so so much. Thinking about me in every small little thing you do. Thank you for lighting up my life with rainbow coloured stars. I really really love you. Though I may be overly mean to you sometimes, but you know I don't mean it deep deep down in my heart. I never did take you for granted that you would be here for me at all times. I always count my blessings to have you by my side. I hope you know how much you mean to me.

Walk with me till the end.

Love you baby, my darling hozhi. The always snoring but extremely cute gaming pig. ♥

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Pictures of us on a certain day.

Can't wait for tmr! Gonna specially doll up for my bby tmr! Byebye. <3

2010-08-10T01:17:00.002+08:00

All meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Like ghost onlyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

Bye!

life story.

2010-08-08T20:02:00.002+08:00

If your life is played out in a movie, how would it be like?
Would there be a lot of obstacles?
Would there be a lot of ups and downs?
Who would be the leading lady/man in it?
Would it be complicated?
Would there be morals learnt from it?
Would there be hardcore villians in it?
How long would your movie play?
Can you change the way your movie ends?

Think about it tonight, how you want your movie ending to be. Happy or sad? Fairytale or nightmare?

Byeee.

Brayhahaha.

2010-08-06T10:08:00.003+08:00

I always see funny people/incidents on bus. HAHAHA. Really. Look at my fb status & you'll know.

Think I always mistook big build girls with short hair as guys. Lol. I don't know why. Nothing much to blog about already. Maybe will post up many many pictures tonight or tmr? (:

Tataz.

Boys will be boys.

2010-08-01T23:49:00.003+08:00

Aw shucks, I have caught the flu bug! My nose has become a running tap all of a sudden. PUI! Although hozhi bought for me the flu medicine & I've already taken it, it doesn't seem to be working. Maybe I need something stronger. Zzz.

Anyway, nothing much happened in my life recently. Just some happy lion dancing with WY. (: And also happy times spent with people around me. Hahah.

On a random note, I find ho zhi really lovable! God knows why I suddenly find him so cute. HAHAHA. Must be something wrong with me. AND, he put his tongue stud back in. Hahah, I'm so fascinated by it. Don't know why. Perhaps I'm still not used to it?

Ending this blog post soon, I can't think properly with this stupid flu of mine. Tataz. Meanwhile enjoy these pictures! <3

Guan Tah Dan Tah's relative funeral. Big flag.

The next day.

Chu shi on Friday I think.

Luckily Theng was able to make it the other day. Or else I will be so so so bored...................

Yesterday.

Us girls!

Can't believe my boy can take such an artistic picture!

Anyway, to bby:

Thanks for being so sweet and taking care of me when I'm sick. Although your constant nagging irritates me a lil' , but I still feel so blessed to be taken care of by you! (: You asking me to eat my medicine, wear cardigan and all. Hahah! Love this sweet boy lots!

Tata.

We are not reserves.

2010-07-25T15:34:00.002+08:00

Continued... ...

Byebye.

Love.

2010-07-18T16:19:00.003+08:00

Went to k box with JMs. Sang till I cried. HAHAHA, I'm a crybaby. Anyway, bitching and gossiping with them at AMK after the k box session was nice. <3

Nothing much happening in my life recently. It is still the same. Anyway, I am now trying to find happiness in the small things happening in my life. I figured that I would be happier that way. (:

Will post more pictures when I nicole ricola send me the other photos with carrots.

Like a small kid, drinking meiji milk. HAHAHA.

And another photo of Aaron bby:

I hope everyone I love around me stays with me. (:

)':

2010-07-15T00:47:00.000+08:00

Who will listen to me cry? Who will love me like you do? Who will sit with me at the couples seat? Who will know what I like to drink or eat? Who will listen to my whining? Who will call me baby? Who will hug me to sleep? Who will acc me to places I want to? Who will tolerate my craps? Who will pat my head? Who will understand me that well? Who will be like you? Who will accept me wholesale? Who will listen and condone to my ridiculous acts? Who will wake up to see me ugly and unglam like you will? Who will care for me like you will?

Would you forget me? Would you go and find other girls? Would you still put me as your priority? Would you always acc me 99% of the time like in the past? would you throw away our past memories? Would you still remember the promises we made to one another? Would you remember the places we used to go to together? Would you remember the significance of the date 10 on every month? Would you still protect me like you used to in the past? Would you love me? Would you hate me?

This feelings sucks.

2010-07-14T23:04:00.003+08:00

How do I learn to give up?
How do I learn to hate?
How do I learn to let go?
How do I learn to be happy?
How do I learn to not love?

If I can master the art of all those, I will be truly happier.
Now only sadness and loneliness fills my heart. I wish I could forget this whole thing and go to sleep. But I fail at this terribly. Cause I still care. Cause I still can't let it go. Cause I still love you. Cause I still want you. Even after you said all those mean stuffs to me. Even though you treated me like that. I guess I'm really a fool.

I really hope I can walk away from you easily and be carefree, but I can't. Terrible. Maybe I will get used to it after some time. I hope I can.

Pictures update.

2010-07-08T20:26:00.002+08:00

Went to kbox a certain day w/ renee robert toh. Haahah, the room was damn big I swear. With a pool table, long couches, three televsions, cordless mikes and a lot of glasses for drinking. Hahaah. But it was eerie. Stupid kbox girl told me that the room was haunted. WTF. Scared the shit out of me! Hahaha, I'm scaredy cat like that. Hmm, but I still enjoyed myself that day. Cause it's robert toh! <3>

CANDID. -.-

Nic & Man, that time, anyway.....

Me & lao niu, crazy snapping. Del few photos away, cause it's way too disturbing for anyone's eyes. Anyway, was very very sick and down with flu that day, so I look sickly.

The cute girl. (:

That time w/ Aaron. Too many pictures which I have forgotten to post. Hahaha. Now posting all at one go!

And these over due photos. Ho zhi's hairstyle isn't even close to looking like that now! Lol..

Okay, Gonna go find a nice blogskin to change into already. Ho zhi's complaining it looks boring. (:

2010-06-28T23:14:00.002+08:00

Hi, I'm Aaron here to tell felicia that i love her very much!!!!!

- Air-ron ho typed the above. So sweet right. ^^

2010-06-18T01:10:00.002+08:00

Back to post. Damn pathetic, my boyf only thinks of dotA now. -.- ZZZ.

Anyway, he cut bangs! HAHAH. Funny ah. Nothing much to blog about, anyway.

Pictures.

A lot of my own pictures.

Kiddy me & Vio. Hahaha, the face lah.

Seedney's thought: Why my bangala still haven't come for me?

Seedney's thought: What lah? Can't I think of my bangala?

Wantheng & me @ training.

I've got pictures of Hozhi wearing pink hairband. But cannot post cause he don't allow. :(

LOL..

Another day. Accompanied him to sign up for driving lessons.

Ugly lah. We don't have the chemistry to take nice pictures alr. Cause he's lazy to smile & sit properly. -_-

The chocolate my baby bought for me. He used his last two dollars to buy it for me cause he knows I like those pretty sweets & chocolates. (:

Watched the A team w/ him. Nice! Funny & action packed. Bradley cooper is so so so so so handsome! HAHAHAH. Plus his eyes, so pretty. HOT TOO AH.

Byebyebye.

2010-06-08T14:10:00.001+08:00

I hate my life.

I've just broke up w/ my boyf, now my best friend hates me.

FML. I've got nothing to say. Just let me shrivel up & die.

2010-06-02T22:37:00.002+08:00

Old photos!

LOL. Brother is sick! Keep doing that kissing thing..

Don't know came over me and I applied b&w to all the photos! HAHAH. Anyway, life's not really good for me these days. ): Do I look really pale & sick nowadays? Why does everyone tell me that?

<:

2010-05-30T17:19:00.002+08:00

Something I got from a book. - Sometimes people just don't know what they are doing. This means that if, in the past, people may have behaved badly towards you, it wasn't necessarily because they meant to be horrid but because they were as naive, as foolish, as human as the rest of us.

I agree with this. But sometimes, I can't seem to let go. Think I am too resentful. Should change it and embrace them as a character which is forming and that they are childish, but changing.

So I gotta move forward! (:

Pictures!

Accompanied Robert Toh to buy lenses. Carrot checking her eye degrees for lenses?! Lol..

Was damn bored, that carrot keep flirting w/ the lady who tested her eyes! Lol..

Only eyeliner, no makeup, damn ugly.

Stayed over at Grandma's house and wore my granny's clothes again!

Vio!

Yours truly!

Lol, Vio says this one looks like an auntie ghost!

Me wearing my granny's clothes.

Vio's posing like a granny.

Me too.

Sweetie-pie, Jaiden.

Another day, went out late at night. Therefore the dark pictures.

Mahmehmoo.

Mac @ 1/2 plus? No wonder we are getting fatter & fatter!!

Okay done. Byebye.

2010-05-28T21:06:00.002+08:00

We're back! In a rush now so can't blog properly. Sorry & thank you baby, for making me believing in you again! :D Love love.

I miss everything.

2010-05-27T00:02:00.003+08:00

I don't know why, I suddenly woke up and blogged. Perhaps my standard answer of telling people I am fine is not workng subconciously. Perhaps I just need somewhere I can write my feelings out. I hope no one reads this. Who will be alright or happy after breaking up? If you do, it means you have not truely loved.

But the very first thing before I blogged was to check my phone. Perhaps it was a habit. Perhaps it was really to see if you still thought of me like I still do for you. My heart sunk lower than rock bottom after I saw my phone's screen: there was nothing.
It hurts really. To see how things used to be nice between us and now, it's awkward.

My feelings would fluctuate even worse and more than I expect. I found myself unable to sleep at night, but feeling tired during the day. I found myself sleeping for just 2 hours, and waking up for school the next day. I found myself eating and suddenly thinking of you. I found myself suddenly bursting into tears. I found myself laughing like a madwoman over small jokes my friends make. I can't eat, drink, sleep and be myself properly.

I woke up to swollen eyes every morning.

But I don't think there's anything I can do anymore. We both agreed on it. Even if it's hard or difficult to cope with, I still have to. Life goes
on no matter how hard it is. If time were to rewind.......

I miss you.
I miss our long night chats.
I miss falling asleep in your arms.
I miss telling you how I feel, not in a friend way.
I miss the happy days together.
I miss you cooking noodles for me.
I miss your hugs and kisses.
I miss having that warm shoulder for me to lean on.
I miss your face and smile.
I miss you, baby.

2010-05-24T23:41:00.000+08:00

After I've finish buying baby's present, I'm gonna buy mine!

http://victoriasecretbags.blogspot.com/

In case I forgot the blog url. Some bags are ew bu some are love! :D

2010-05-23T23:05:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I wish I did not fall so hard for you so if you were really to let go, it wouldn't hurt that much. Love is really tiring and makes people feel so strained sometimes. The moments being happy together ain't enough to make up for the sadness you will have once you two break up. The thought of breaking up has yet to cross my mind. But sometimes I feel that life would be better for both if we choose to give all up. Rather than trying to make everything work and dragging, resulting in fatigue from both parties. When you feel the relationship is going haywire or that something is not right anymore, it's better to end everything before the hurt gets even deeper.

Song lyrics excerpt: though I'm exhausted to the point where I can't walk, though my tears blur my vision, I will still smile in front of my live that I'll not be able to have.

Bye.

2010-05-22T02:39:00.002+08:00

Hello. Sorry for not posting for such a long period of time. Life's been pretty hectic these few days. It's getting tougher and tougher for me. UT, assignments and PP. Sigh. Anyway, there's not really anything particularly interesting or happening for me to blog about, hence the lack of updates.

Anyway, I've created a new meaning for the word ah gua! In actual terms, it actually means a guy who dresses and behaves like a girl. But in my dictionary, it means doing something I don't like or something shitty. Hahah. E.g: Walao, ah gua lah you, why you spilled my drink?

Hahah, so next time if I called you an ah gua, don't correct me by telling me I used the word inappropriately! And for guys, don't be offended!

Okay, bye.

2010-05-08T23:14:00.001+08:00

The 25 reasons I love you <3

1) The way you stand by my side

2) The times you make sure nothing will harm me

3) How you always find a new way to wow me

4) When I'm sad, you take the pain away with a joke

5) How you always look deep into my eyes

6) How you can make my heart melt with your soft lips

7) The way you hold my hand so tight

8) The way you never let my hands go

9) How you always watch out for me

10) They way you make sure I have everything I need

11) How you always know what to say when I get mad at you

12) When you buy me things out of the blue

13) How you say the cutest things over and over and never gets old

14) The way you play with my hair when I'm falling asleep

15) The way you stare at me as if I am the most handsome person in the world

16) The times when you were determined for me not to be mad at you anymore

17) The way you look when I get all dressed up

18) The smile you give after I'm done kissing you

19) The way you act like a weirdo but make me laugh

20) The way your not embarrassed to say or do anything in front of me

21) How you can just defend me and not be scared

22) The way you walk when you get sad

23) The look you make when you get jealous

24) When I’m feeling the worst, you make me feel the happiest

25) The way you sing to be all cheesy

I found this from one of the pages I joined in Facebook. It's nice right? ((:

Hate my nose. Stupid flu. -.- Bye.

2010-05-08T00:18:00.002+08:00

Back to post about Derick & Leah's wedding. (: This post is super overdued but I still have to post it.

The wedding was so sweet & touching, I swear. The part where they both walked in to the hall was such a memorable moment. Everyone was captivated by the the beautiful couple and never did they take their eyes off them. Hahah. Pictures are at my facebook. If you wanna see them, please go there & have a look. There's too much to post here. (: A lot of funny stuffs took place that day but I am lazy to elaborate all out. Lol.

Anyway, watched Ip Man2 today. It was damn damn damn nice. The storyline was interesting and there were lots of fighting scenes which made the audience nervous for him. I give this show a four & a half stars out of five. I love it! :D

2010-04-30T23:16:00.003+08:00

ROBERT TOH QIAN HAN is loved! Hahah. Only she know why. Lol.. (:

Anyway, I've got two funny photos of Vio sis. But I dare not post it up, cause I'm scared she'll get angry. Should I? Lol..

Anyway, went out w/ Vio sis today. To Bugis to buy her dress. Found it! Looks nice ah. I like..

Pictures up. Lazy to type so much ah. So try to picture out the story through them. (:

SICK UNCLE WHO KEEP SEATING NEAR ME. Zzz.

Today..

Vio ask me to take this photo cause the guy's dressing looks like frankie! HAHAHA..

Other day.

Okay. BYEBYE.. SNSD = Love. (:

Random one..

2010-04-25T00:59:00.003+08:00

I dislike people who laugh at other people's English, all the time. So what if your English is perfect? Stop showing off, idiot.

Not referring to my friend, nor has anyone done that to me. I just know of someone who does that and it's fucking irritating. Stop looking down on people and stop being rude. People would like you more, loser.

Also, get a reality check. Do you really think you're attractive or that you're smart & your English is good? It's just average.

Your poly ain't really good so stop commenting on others. Unless your cert comes out good, or else all I can ask you to do is STFU.

Friends/Me?

2010-04-24T23:41:00.002+08:00

Hello! Life's pretty hectic these days. Hate it x 10000000. But I have to take it with a pinch of salt, no choice. Motivation for attending classes seems to be higher than last sem! (: Hahah. Hope this continues for a very long period of time. The pictures taken above have really nice lighting as while I was taking the pictures, the sunlight just shone in. I like! Just foundation and nothing else. So I look really bare-faced.

Tataz! (:

2010-04-23T09:05:00.002+08:00

Long time no post. This is gonna be an image heavy post, so if your com lags, hahah! Hmm, now in class blogging. Programming today ah, wish me the best of luck. TGIF. Yeah. ((:

Met up with Enola, Joycelyn, Ivy, Leenah and Warner bros for dineer yesterday. Super funny bitching session was so fun. Definitely looking to the next one much. Lol.. Reminisce our sec school days. It was so funny that the whole KFC was filled with our laughters and chit chats. Hahah. Enjoyed!

Okay, pictures.

A lot of self narcissistic pictures.

@ HZXA house.

@ Lion dance..

Yesterday.

Phew, finished. Tataz. Gonna listen in class. It took the whole of my willpower to drag myself up for school. -.-

2010-04-17T23:46:00.001+08:00

Byebye. Just some pictures found in baby's phone. Boringgggggggggggggggg.

2010-04-13T17:33:00.003+08:00

Do you know what is illuminati?

According to urban dictionary, it means secret organisation for the most powerful & elite people.

From what I know, they are also responsible for mind control. People under mind control would bring terrible consequences to their body. Illuminati is what controls the people and their minds. They are people who wants to manipulate your body, mind and soul.

Sign for the rocafella? It's the triangle, Eye of Horus.

Did you know that Lady GaGa, Beyonce, Paramore, Rihanna and Jay-Z are all part of the illuminati? O_O

http://vigilantcitizen.com/?p=1676

Read this for the Lady GaGa article about her being the puppet for Illuminati.

Browse through the web and you can find similar reports of Illuminati for Beyonce's sweet dreams, Rihanna's disturbia & umbrella, Jay-Z & Rihanna's Run this town and Paramore's brick by boring brick.

Go on, read about all these. You may be surprised by what you read. It's kinda interesting. Definitely bookmarking this site for more updates. Anyway, some people call that person who wrote these articles nuts, but some people call that person a genius. It's up to you to believe or scoff.

2010-04-12T23:55:00.002+08:00

Wow, just finished reading two people's accounts of school bullies. Both girls. Hmm, their cases are even worse than mine. At least mine was still okay.

Also, whenever teachers reprimand me or preach at me, I cry. So they stopped. Hahah. I guess nerdy people usually get bullied. Especially in secondary school. Thinking back, I was really really really nerd during my sec 1 and 2 years. PATHETIC. Lugging heavy textbooks to school.

Also, I remember incidents of my clique being bullied by this particular person: Bulldog.

Once, we were having free period. No teachers were substituting us. So naturally, tables were being joined. So my clique was non the less different. We all gathered around and sang songs. It wasn't really loud. And the class's chats & laughters were even louder than us.

Being that bitch, she heard us sing. She whispered to her friend M*****, another pathetic teacher's pet. Then she suddenly stood up infront of the class and shouted: Shhh, keep quiet please, someone's trying to singggggggggggggggggg. And her gaze just fell upon us.

Our class turned to look at her. The class went quiet for about 3 seconds and they were back again, full blast.

Hahah! Now, while I'm thinking back, it was really stupid for us to keep quiet. That stupid bulldog could only gather that pathetic 3 seconds of the class's attention. Sad case. Lol.

My friend, J******* and I were just letting down our hair. For fun of course, not trying to act chio or what nuts.

Suddenly, these bunch of girls walked past us and said: Aiyoh, 7th month haven't reach, got ghost appearing alr ah.

We looked at her, but we didn't say a word. -.- Then we got really sad & all. Being crybabies, me & my friend cried. A teacher saw us crying and asked us why. We merely shaked our heads. She told us to look for her again if we're willing to tell her what's bothering us. The three bitches saw it I guessed. And being pathetic scaredy cats, they told us not to tell the teacher. WTF? In the end, after a few more weeks, they transfered to another school. HAHAH. I'm not sure if they apologized, but guess they lack guts!

I've got something to comment:

To those bitches,

Those fat ones, ugly ones, auntie like ones, cui looking ones, CMI at everything ones.

Seeing you all now really makes me laugh. You all look even more pathetic and repulsive to me now. I will always remember these two incidents. I don't forget easily. Hope you all burn well in hell. Karma would get back at you. What goes around comes around. I guess I hate the bulldog the most. Most auntie-like, cmi dressing, buang face and all. I wonder how you're coping in class now. Heard from my friend you're kinda sad case now aye? WOO!

Gotta stop now before I turn too nasty w/ my words.

Sec 3 & 4 were more enjoyable I guess. With friends I love.

Anyway, BRD is still very much loved. Guess we stood tgt even though people bullied us. (: We still remained as a clique even though bullies targeted us. (Or other people)

I guess everybody got bullied before, it's just that they don't wanna say it out or choose to forget it.

Now, I live my life well. Whoever bullies me shall get their desserts back. I give back what people give me, sometimes twice as much.

Learn to stand up for yourself instead of keeping mum. Live well! Tataz, nights. I am finishing this post.

OMG

2010-04-12T22:09:00.005+08:00

School is starting in 2 days time!! Kinda excited, but kinda dreading it too. But I guess the excitement feeling overrules the feeling of dread. Hahah. Nelson & Liyin are in the same class as me. So, I ain't really worrying. Plus meetups during breaks for all the gossip & chit chats yea! (:

But whats vexing me out is my inability to go into lalaland at normal timings (2200-0000). I only sleep at the wee hours of morning. -.- Hope I'll get back to the habit of sleeping at normal timings. Or else I'm gonna die.

Okay, horrendous pictures below. - All thanks to baby's lousy photography skills & not using the 'flash' while taking pics.

Note to self: Please take better pics on our 11th.

Anyway, our celebration at the Zoo for our 10th month failed miserably. Didn't manage to get up on the day before or on the monthsary day itself. Tsk. Both of us are lazy bums!

To baby:

Happy belated 10th months! Although we didn't do anything special on that day, having your company was enough. (: I still love you a lot, don't you worry.

Love the silly, goofy you.

Love the sweetest you.

Love the unglam & ugly you.

Love the piggy-like you.

Love the all-smiles you.

Love the cute you.

Love everything about you!

2 more months and it shall be our anniversary! No more of just monthsaries. OMG. Damn damn damn fast. Malaysia aye, baby? Must ah. Hahah. More precious & sweet memories w/ you, boy!

2010-04-07T00:12:00.006+08:00

Reading this book now. Seems it's a nice one. It's sectioned into 5 parts - Rules for the world, social, family & friends, partnership & yourself. Wanna read more books on self development so I can know how to handle my life, my future and people around me properly. Afterall, I'm already 18, can't expect me to read teenage fiction or books which don't help me build my character & self right? This book basically talks about how/what you can do to make yourself happier in life and how to be more successful. Also, your impact on people around you.

I'm gonna spend more of my money/time on these genre of books. Rather than my makeup or clothes. -.-

I'm gonna read these next:

1. Your erroneous zones.

This book tells you about what thoughts you have which are holding you back. Guilt, low self-esteem, etc. It teaches you how to break out of this negative cycle so you can live your life better and happier.

2. Practical intelligence

Teaches you how to master your practical skills. Think this is pretty important. Not really sure about the book's content, but it seems like a good read.

These three will do, till I find better self-help books. Lol. Hope I would be able to find them. On my path to a happier, more successful and independent me! (:

P/s: Baby saw me reading and he gave that ridiculous face. -.- Can't stand him. Whatever books I read always seem to be some book which he doesn't like. But anyway, he doesn't like any books, cause he says it gives him headache. So opposite from me. I'm a bookworm. -.-

Work day.

2010-04-05T14:51:00.004+08:00

Worked on Sat at:

Working there was, hmm, quite fun I guess? Better than my working stint at Mango. -.-

The day which I worked for is the day for 3 performances by various singers. (I only remember chen jian bing & lin xiao.) Mostly catered to the elderly. (lao ren jias). Hahah. They're okay. But gets impatient at times. They can get quite cute too.

That's how my day went past on Sat. & thankyou to someone & friends for taking care of me on that day. (:

Pics!

The easter M&Ms I bought. Kena sucked in by the cute packaging. -.-

$3.60.

Crew tag.

At the workplace.

Below are 3 funny looking expressions of baby. They tell a story. Here goes:

He emos, thinking about why his photo is edited till it looks like a girl. He wants to be known as Aaronie, not Aaron!

He catches me taking a photo of him. But he's too slow to turn that face into a smile.

Take one more of me smiling ah! Walao!

End of story.................................... Tataz.

Anyway, miss Aaronie? Here!

2010-04-01T20:43:00.002+08:00

The only pic I find her wearing normal clothes?

-.- Okay. Whatever. Just find it weird that she likes wearing that kind of style.

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The more I look at Lagy GaGa, the more I find her weird. No offence to any fan of hers, but I really find her weird in the dress sense. Some may say daring. Some may say attention grabbing. Some may say cool. However, others may say craziness. Or over the top maybe? But I guess her stage performance and nice songs make up for those fashion sense. Okay, everyone's entitled to their own opinions. Peace out.

But after watching her interview. Hmm................................................................ She's lovable!

2010-03-24T16:01:00.002+08:00

Haiz, I suddenly thought of the issue of you going to NS. ):

Omg, I don't wanna think so much leh, can die out of worrying and sadness.

Better cheer up quickly cause later gonna sing k w/ renee toh aka robert toh!

Bye, I'm gonna immerse myself into some happy music. Gonna bathe & makeup! Tataz.

Smile, cause even if you're unhappy & worrying all the time, the world still goes round, and time still ticks by. - Felicia.

So smile for yourself & your loved ones! (:

2010-03-24T00:51:00.002+08:00

Me. (:

Show you a photo of my brother. Max hilarious x 1000000000000000000. Funny brother.

Okay, nothing to say already. Tataz! (:

2010-03-22T00:20:00.002+08:00

Hello! Firstly, Happy Birthday Mommy! Celebrated her birthday at granny's house today. Had steamboat for dinner & the birthday cake for dessert. Nice ah! I actually wanted to eat 2 slices but there is only enough for one slice per person. Sad case. ):

Anyway, headed to Hougang Plaza on that particular day to play a game of pool & a long long k box session. Not a single hint of makeup on and I look so pale & awful. ):

Whatever. Pictures taken at k box.

Me.

Lao niu,

Okay, below are quite some narcissistic photos of me:

Lao Niu. ^

Me.

Hahah, take funny photos also fun.

HAHAH!! She wants to take those ugly photos. Not candid!

The stupid 'close-up' photo of us.

& baby did something which made me so touched, seriously. But I don't wanna say out. Later both of us shy. Hahaha. . But it happened after my k box session. Surprised he will be like that & did that thing. Hahah. Sweetboy!

Love love. Gonna do other things already. (:

2010-03-18T00:55:00.004+08:00

Went on some sort of a yatch on my cousin's birthday. It was so so. Not really fun but okay. Aaronie tagged along too. Hahah. He's weak lah! Don't wanna say out the reason, later he shy. Hahah.

Anyway, pictures taken!

See? The pig's tail is shown out. His real pig behaviour. LAZY! Hahah, actually, he had sea sickness.

Hahah, but I forced him to take one picture w/ me!

Laoniu, Me & lizard.

Hair particularly messy cause of the big wind outside!

Some space on the lower deck of the yatch which you could see the water swishing by. Really damn cool & nice!

Me w/ my granny aka ah miu.

Camwhored a bit. Lol..

I planned to secretly take photos of him sleeping. Like the above. But but but, turns out that he is not sleeping! Cause he opened his eyes right away when I took the pic below.

We went out for a spin in this small boat. It can only hold 3 people at a time. So me, mommy & bf.

The pig's thinking of food.

I like this photo cause baby looks so cute! Like them

The sweet & nice photo which my artistic sis secretly took.

Anyway,

Hahah, vio & I ate sweets & I had this sudden idea.

And.

Okay, that's all.

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Dear ,

for yesterday's . I know my words are harsh but I don't mean any single one of them. Glad you understand the reason why. Forgive me kay?

Love & Kisses.

2010-03-16T14:20:00.001+08:00

Finally done! Phew. Tiring ah. Have to re-download all the programs used previously. But it's done! Yay. Pictures I found while clearing my com.

Tataz! (:

2010-03-13T23:43:00.003+08:00

We had a long talk yesterday. Everything's fine now. Thanks all for caring. (:

Sorry babyboy. I know I may not be the best girlfriend you had. I may not be the one who show you the most care & concern, I may not be the one who gives in the most. But I am really trying hard to be the star girlfriend you want. I know I throw random tantrums at you & treat you bad and all, but deep down, I don't really mean it. I care for you as much as you do for me. It's not that I don't know how to appreciate or that I am demanding. I guess it's just my character. Sorry. I hope we will become even better kay? We shall last long long long.! ♥

[Keri Hilson]
Oh this ain't supposed to happen to me

[Keri Hilson]
I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in and knocked me on my face
Feels like I'm in a race but I already won first place

I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did (as hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinking about our life, our house and kids (Yeah)
Every morning I look at you and smile
Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down (knocked me down)


Said if i could go back and make it happen faster
don't you know i would baby if i could

[Keri Hilson]
so you gotta take the good with the bad, the happy and the sad
or will you bring the better future then i had in the past
cause i don't want to make the same mistakes i did

The above are what I wanna tell you. (:

I wish someone last long w/ her boyf!

Anyway, went tampines w/ laoniu today. Rush lah! In the end bought the things I want. Satisfied! (:

Kay, tataz.

2010-03-12T19:57:00.001+08:00

It hasn't sunk in yet.

If You Leave Ft. Mary J. Blige

You think I'm so full of it, full of it
But I think I'm just fed up, baby
You think I can be so arrogant, arrogant
But I'm just tryna keep my head up, baby
You think I procrastinate baby
But I think I'm taking my time
You think you need to leave
But I think I disagree but

If you believe you'll do best without me
I'll let it go girl, it's over
But before we say goodbye
Let's give it a try
If you leave, then baby I'll leave
I'll let it go girl, it's over
But I have no doubt
We can work it out yeah

I think you're so full of it, full of it
You just don't know when to let up baby
I think you're so arrogant, arrogant
But you think you're so much better baby
That I think it aint dealt before me to judge you by your flaws and that's why
No I could criticize, but I put that aside
To focus on you and I

But if you believe you'll do best without me
Then I'll let it go boy, it's over
But before we say goodbye
Let's give it a try
If you leave, then baby I'll leave
I'll let it go boy, it's over
But I have no doubt
We can work it out yeah

Now if you wanna go, baby
Then I'll let you go
And even though I'm tryna hold on
I can't if you don't

No, now if you leave me, you're gonna miss me
and I'm not saying that I'll be here waiting
Since we here right now (instead of just walking out)
Let's work to reach the point that I know we can be...

But if you believe, you'll do best without me
Then I'll let it go
It's over (it's over)
But before we say goodbye
Let's give it a try
If you leave, then baby I'll leave
I'll let it go girl, it's over
I have no doubt that we can work it out

If you believe, you'll do best without me
I'll let it go girl, it's over
Before we say goodbye
Let's give it a try
If you leave, then baby I'll leave...

Bye bye.

How I spend my 9th.

2010-03-12T01:14:00.005+08:00

Firstly, happy 9th months to us! (:

Thanks for all the happiness you gave me.
Thanks for all the joy you bring me.
Thanks for sharing your love and giving it to me.
Thanks for being my baby.

I still remember, all the quarrels we have. Big ones, small ones, unreasonable ones, or ridiculous ones, you would always give in to me. Although I am always having my scary mood swings, bad temper and all, you would always try to make me calm down. I know, no normal guy would be able to last so long w/ me. I am certain. But you did. To say the truth, I think not any guy would be able to tolerate my craps. Only you. Therefore, I am really thankful of you. For not letting go of me / this relationship even if it's really gone overboard. Also, I wanna thank you for always willing to do things for me. I know I am a lazy bum, but you're still willing to do all kinds of stuffs for me. I always wake you up from your sleep whenever I can't sleep. You won't be fedup, but talk to me. When I try to push you past your tolerance level, you always doesn't snap. Hahah, I don't know why. Maybe it's your big heart or that you really put up with it cause you don't wanna shout at me. I don't know. Actually, there's a lot a lot of things on my mind i really wanna say out to you, but I don't know where to start. Only you, I guess, sees the truest side of me. Only you, sees the ugliest side of me. Only you, sees the gentlest side of me. Only you, see the caring side of me to you. Only you, sees me pale and ugly. Only you, sees the rough side of me. In spite of that, you did not run away. (: I doubt I will ever find another like you again. And I don't want you. I hope we last long long long. Don't stop loving me cause I won't for you!

I love you, Aaron Ho Zhi Xiong, you would always be my babyboy.

Okay, pictures!

I asked baby to stand straight to see how much our height defers. Turns out to be quite a lot! I don't know why. T.T

I don't know what I am doing.

Caught in Action! Looking at girls. Lol. No lah, he's looking at a guy who keeps dancing at the MRT.

Reflection.

The ultimate. Pig nose!! Hahah.

Home sweet home.

Love ya lots, babyboy!

Okay, my own pics.

Dirty mirror.

The eyeliner is a bit thicker cause I smudged it. Hahah.
Things we did:
-Met at Compass point.
- Had MacDonalds.
- Trained to AMK hub.
- Catched Alice in Wonderland.
-Movie ended.
- Hungry, walked around the whole of streets near AMK hub.
- Ate nothing.
- Home sweet home.
- Ton, my house!
- Witnessed a pig sleeping.

Anyway, the kachang puteh @ Amk hub is loves. And baby, don't forget, I want my Alice in Wonderland mug! (:

Night night all. Have a nice & sweet dream. (:

2010-03-09T13:04:00.003+08:00

Have been procrastinating for very long about scanning some neoprints baby & I took tgt. Finally gotten round it today. Hahah. Both taken at Bugis, using different machines.

This is the older one.

This is the more recent one.

Anyway, it's so little cause I didn't scan all the neoprints. I only took those from my wallet & ez link card holder.

Anyway, I hope some god/diety hears my pleas and help my leg in recovering soon! I wanna go out!

Okay, nothing more to say. Tataz.

p.s What's up w/ the trend of saying --> kthxbye on their blogs? It seems so freaking yucks. Bleah.

2010-03-08T14:52:00.001+08:00

Getting sick of this cutesy blog template. Gonna change it to something more simple and darker soon. Procrastination, please don't catch up w/ me! (:

2010-03-07T00:25:00.003+08:00

Went fishing w/ baby @ Pasir Ris yesterday. Hahah. Quite boring. But in the end he caught a fish. One measly fish. Lol. For $25. -.- But I know he enjoyed that fishing experience quite a lot.

Anyway, caught up quite a bit w/ joycelyn. (: Planning to catch a movie w/ them. I hope it happens soon! I still remember BRD. (:

Pictures.

Valentine's gift.

Monthsary gift.

This is a past monthsary gift from him. Thinking now that I am receiving lots of gifts from him? Well, the wallet is for the next month. He always sees what I like then pay for it and tells me it is for my monthsary gift. Cause he is always fretting about what to buy for me. Lol. & also, I buy for him stuffs too. Just that I don't post it out. Hah! But guys' gift are usually harder to choose.

Cute right? (:

Something I bought for V sis.

Long time ago. Walking in the park. His back view.

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Baby! 3 more days to our 9th month. As how V sis put it, 3 more months to our year! (: Hahah. I know I am far fetched. Love love. We gonna take pics. Don't care! (: Loving you more and more seriously. Thanks for being such a nice boyf. After we celebrated our monthsary then I blog a post specially for you kay? Those mushy mushy ones you like to read. ROFL.

2010-03-01T23:51:00.002+08:00

Zzz. Kind ole me just helped Vio sis write an English essay. I think I may be the kindest person alive. Hahah. & Lame Vio even asked me to use lousier and simplified English so her teacher would not suspect a thing. -.-

Here goes:

My stomach was still feeling unwell on Monday. However, as I had an important exam on that day, I had no choice but to go to school with my sick stomach. Suddenly, I feel the need to visit the toilet again. I quickly rushed into one of the toilet cubicles as fast as my legs could carry me.

Once I was inside the cubicle, I relieved myself immediately. Just as I was about to come out from the cubicle, I heard laughter and loud voices. Judging from the way they speak, I concluded that they were the notorious group of girls who always opposed to teachers and got into trouble with the school discipline master.

I stopped myself from unbolting the lock. I breathe softly as I do not want them to know my existence. I was curious on what they were up to. “Flick flick”. I heard lighters being lit up and suddenly, the smell of cigarettes filled my nostrils. “They are smoking right inside the school toilet? Aren’t they scared?” I asked myself.

For what seemed like eternity, they finally finished smoking their cigarettes and left the toilet. I quickly got out of the toilet and went back to class.

As I went back into the classroom, everyone suddenly switch their gazes from the projector to me. They made weird faces which I could not understand why. I returned to my seat. After a few minutes, the discipline master came to my class and beckoned me out of the classroom. He asked me sternly if I was smoking just now. I protested. He said that I reeked of cigarette smell and asked for an explanation.

Then, it dawned on me. It was the group of girls smoking inside the toilet and the smell must have got into my clothes. That is why my classmates made those faces when I returned to class. I quickly explained the situation to the discipline master. He then called the group of girls and we were all on our way to the school office. The group of girls were also interrogated by the discipline master. After a heated argument, the group of girls soon confessed to smoking inside the toilet and also added that I was not involved in what they were doing. The discipline master then called the girls’ parents.

Their parents soon came and talked with the discipline master. One parent, in a fit of anger, slapped the daughter in front of all of us. The girl left, red-faced. Other parents were all reprimanding their daughters and storming out of the school compound in fury.

As I returned back to class, I felt sad. My heart overflowed with sadness. I was so embarrassed and despondent. How could anyone have thought that I smoked?

However, as I returned back to class, I have learnt that Miss Tan, my math teacher had heard from the discipline master and has helped me clear up the misunderstanding with the class. The tension slowly thawed and everything went back to normal. The school day went on and everything was fine again.

Wasted that bit of my brain juice, where I could have been watching my movies! Hmph. Anyway, I've read a book Sinee lent me. Whao. Whao. Whao. That true story is really very very very depressing. It makes sex seems disgusting. Wtheck. Anyway, it is not a sick book. Just a true story about a girl being abused. Sexually, mentally and physically. Her mother even hit her till she became partially blind. Wtf, seriously. Plus she has a sick paedophile as her step-dad. Only worsens the situation. Imagine being virtually raped everyday by a guy who claims to be your dad. No, make that lots of guys. Her step-dad even sold her to a group of paedophiles. _|_ Zzz. I don't wanna continue. It gets me all riled up. Luckily she finally stood up for herself later on. Okay, I'll continue my review/opinion of the book another time or else this post might get too lengthy.

Tatatz. Off to do watch my movies already. (:

2010-03-01T22:07:00.002+08:00

I've bought.......

Haven't tested it yet. But, it is like a foundation but incorporating the concept of concealer in it. Hope it's good. (:

& other stuffs lah. But it's just mainly sweets, a shaver, masks & scrunchie. No point putting pictures up.

Accompanied Vio sis to cut hair. Nicer, definitely. Length still kept, but just a bit more layer and fringe cut slightly shorter.

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Baby,
I hope everything would be fine tmr. About the case. I've decided, getting sad/angry/disappointed would not help, at this particular junction of time. So, instead of blaming you, I shall stand by you & give you the support you need now. I think you'll need it. I know I am being a 101% good girlfriend by doing so, so you better love me even more! (:

Good luck for tmr, baby.

2010-03-01T00:47:00.002+08:00

Chu shi for the whole day. Sometimes, I think lion dance is really roughing out, like in a camp. Hot sun, tiring journey & all. But but but, it is so much more fun. I hate camps to the maxxxxxx. -.-

Also, we had our lao yu sheng today w/ Wenyi. Hahah. Ours may not be the loudest table amongst the three, but but but, we've the coolest & funniest cheer. ROFLMAO. Kinda difficult to explain here. Go listen to a sheep laugh. It's somewhat similar to that. :D

Anyway, to a certain someone. (Not even sure you read my blog, but, whateffs.)
Hope you don't see it as a personal attack to you or that I have a certain prejudice against you. Ty. I hate/detest/loathe/dislike someone for particular reasons. If you didn't do anything which irks me, I would not hate/detest/loathe/dislike you. Easy peasy, lemon squeezy. (:

I think I ain't really suitable for blogging. Who posts this kind of -.- post? Zzz, whatever, it's for my own pleasure. Plus, it also serves as way to kill time. Hahah.

No more Chinese new year. ):

Hmm, tataz, off to do other more productive stuffs @ 1.01 now. 9 more days baby!

2010-02-26T13:07:00.001+08:00

Nothing interesting to post. My life is so mundane. -.- Waiting for airebyi to come to my house.

& laoniu, please refrain from raising your voice wherever you are. So noisyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! Even though you're very excited. Thanks. ;D

I gotta post here cause you're always sleeping/studying/in your own world. Hope you don't mind.

Tataz.

P.s. How I wish everybody has holidays now....

2010-02-22T13:15:00.003+08:00

I hope wenyi does not close down.

All the effort we put in. Some had major exams, common tests, UTs & practicals but still squeezed time out for lion dance. Those who had school till late cause of their CCAs & remedial lessons but still rushed down to our meeting place just to come for the trainings. Some not giving their girlf/boyf enough time & attention just to come to wenyi to train & chu shi? If * were to close down Wenyi, I think everyone who put in their effort would feel wasted. We all strived for wenyi to be best. Be it in terms of our professionalism in music, lion/dragon dance or the way we present ourselves. We wanted to do wenyi proud.

Also, what about the friendship all of us had? The long hours of us training together and chu shi-ing. I remembered you telling us that you wanted this troupe not just to be an ordinary lion dance troupe but also to share problems and happiness w/ each other, study together, motivate each other & also to treat each other as family members. Also, the tears, joy, laughter, stress & all the mixed emotions all of us felt together all this while? The love & care we all have for one another?

It's not so easy for us to share all these. Imagine from being total strangers to now, it all didn't came by just because of a day or two. All the fun times we had together, the times where we were worried for one another, times we felt excited about our chu shi. Times we felt motivated to do our stuffs better to bring more glory to Wenyi. How we gave our best shots so we would be more professional and better to comapred to the other troupes.

Do you remember how everyone of us first went into wenyi w/o knowing a single thing about lion dance but learning more and more afterwards? Girls not knowing how to do anything related to lion dance at all but now, even joining the lion dance competition? How the younger guys don't even know how to play the lion heads till they can play well now? How our dragon sucks a lot but now people can even praise us? It is because everyone trained w/ their sweat, hard work & effort. Some even got injured during trainings & chu shi..

I bet you know all these. I know you're not willing and you can't bear to let Wenyi go. Wenyi has already gone through so much. This year 6 of june would be our fourth year already, if it is still going on. I hope you'll consider again, thoroughly. We all still want to sit close together in the lorry. We still want to feel tired cause of all the chu shi we went. We still want share the moments of tears, joy & laughter together. We still want to share our Tuesdays and Thursdays nights together at the training ground. We all still want to feel united, together as one, in Wenyi. We all want to see Wenyi's flag still flying around Singapore & made known to everyone how good we are! (:

2010-02-17T21:58:00.006+08:00

Lion dance all the way. Only now do I have the time to be reconnected to the cyberworld and blog again. Thanks to the long hours of lion dance and the scorching sun, I've become 10 shades darker. Lol. One of my lion dance mate said: It's easy to get dark but if you want to get light, it's very difficult! Hahah, I think he's very right. You need all sorts of whitening potions, creams and all to get white. But to get dark? Just stand under the sun for a couple of hours.

Went to Punggol sec to perform today. Hahah. Nothing interesting? But got embarassed as I hit an extra note. It was damn loud. Tsk. ): Whatever, no one knows me there except for some. So, I guess it's alright? (:

Okay, pictures.

Me & my grandma. She is damn cool. She took the below picture w/ Vio first. But she thinks she looks fat, therefore, she tilted her body so she'll look slimmer. Hahah! My grandma is very ai mei! Like me.

V sis.

Stupid face plastered on my bro's face.

My cute cousin, Justus. (:

Lion dance.

MelWin monkey.

I think he has a secret obsession of taking ugly photos. Hahah!

Derrick.

Waner's messy hair. Lol.

Me & V.

Sinee & Me.

I know I look pale & hideous w/o makeup. Haiz, was discussing w/ wantheng how nice it would be if we have our makeup on our face all the time w/o ever having the need to wash it away. Just keep touching up.

V sis, Me, Sin sin ketchup.

V sis.

Me.

Anyway, why does it seem to me that girls go ga-ga over flowers? Lol. Almost every blog I read on the girls are about them gushing excitedly over flowers. Be it bouquet or just a stalk, they simply love it so much! Lol. Anyway, it's not that I am jealous cause I did not receive any. It's cause I told my boyf I don't want any! Hahah. I find it a waste of money. You buy them just to watch them wither and throw it in the bin? Anyway, I think it looks pretty ridiculous holding a bouquet of flowers. You just don't know what to do w/ the flowers while you're out on the streets, do you? That's the reason I don't like flowers for whatever the occasion may be.

Btw, do you like the sun kissed look? The brown golden skin tone? I kinda like it. Wanna try it too. Been thinking of it quite a few weeks back. Asked baby whether it's nice to try it but he says yucks. -.- But, the sun kissed, bronzed goddess? Whoo! Hahah. My makeup consists of light shades, baby pink blushes & light coloured high lighter. So, I wanna try another look. Think I am gonna trade my light hues of high lighter and blusher for a bronzer and a darker, healthier shade of blusher. Hahah, excited!

People who rocked this look. (:

GG, Leighton meester.

Rachel Bilson.

Eva Longoria.

Megan fox. Tan/Pale.
She looks so pretty w/ the tanned look.

Another one.

Guide to getting it. I hope I get round to getting my makeup soon. I'm a lazy bum.
Okay, I'm off to do other stuffs now. Gotta read my mags, books & sleep! Tmr I still need to wake up at 7 plus. Haiz. Hope it'll be a nice one. Tataz.

2010-02-14T02:15:00.002+08:00

Happy CNY & valentine. Mine ain't really celebrated happily, cause my boyf is out of sg. So it's equivilant to no V day for me. Anyway, I've already gotten round it. So it's okay. What to do? Expect to accept? Okay, I shall force myself to type a hahah here. So this post does not sound resentful or like I'm blaming him. (: Hmm, just reached home after chu shi. Tiring! I
can't imagine the new year period. Bet it will be a hundred times more than that. Today's chu shi is quite
enjoyable. Derrick's kah zhui is so nice, really. Hahah. Anyway, hope I'll get a lot of ang baos tmr! $_$ Hahah.
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Day1. HOW?! Miss him so much! Haiz. I miss his face, his voice, his hands, his smile & everything about him. I miss SMS-ing him every night and getting back a reply from him. I miss chatting w/ him on the phone at night. Sigh. I miss his presence lah! Anyway, I'm hugging Rabbie now. So at least I feel better. Mickey & Minnie are here too. Just beside me. Blog ah blog, I really hope baby comes back quickly. Come home quickly! Rabbie, Mickey, Minnie, Boy bear and your baby misses you! Stupid me, don't know why so sad about this matter. Kay lah blog, I shall end here. Stop all my rants and nonsense.
IMISSYOUMUCHHZXA!

2010-02-12T00:18:00.001+08:00

Do guys get pms too? If not, why am I experiencing a case of it today? Haiz. Spoiled the otherwise perfect day. ): But nevermind, I'm not blaming you.

2010-02-09T19:03:00.003+08:00

Dear god,
I hope that in the midst of helping others, please remember to help enlighten my dense boyf during your free time. It would save me from a lot of frustration and anger which might cause me to have wrinkles in the near future. However, if you've already done so, please try harder. I hope you would hear my prayers and come to my aid before I burst a vessel. I believe that miracles do happen. So may he suddenly wake up and become an enlightened guy. I thank you in advance.

Love,
Your hopeful individual.

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Anyway, I remembered writing this draft out like a few months ago and now, I finally blogged it out. Here goes.

Today, I saw an old couple. They were looking dearly into each other's eyes. The man was holding her tight in his embrace. That was so sweet. It made me question myself, would my love be like this when we're old? Would you still hold me like how you did in the past? Care for me as much as you did while we were young? Love me for my character? Love my wrinkles, white hair and frail body? Walk with me even though my aching body could only walk that slow pace? Today I asked you how long you would love me. You said don't know. I asked: At least? Your answer was still I don't know. I was dissapointed, so so so thoroughly dissapointed. ): I've got nothing to say if your reply is this.

* Anyway, I asked him yesterday how long he would continue to love me. He said very long. I probed further, asking him very long is how long. He said: Till the day we get married? Then He called. I told him: So you would only love me till we get married. But after that you won't love me anymore? He said: That's only the first half.

I would like to know what caused the vast disparency in the answers to the same question. But at least now I guess he loves me more than the time back then. (:

Okay, tmr is our 8th and we're like having a cold war now. Thanks to him, then thanks to me. Tried to make up, but given the cold shoulder, got angry, so now I am giving him the cold shoulder. Don't think we're meeting tmr. Thanks to the dense boy who doesn't get my hints. Fucking angry now. Zzz. God ah, I am pleading you, please enlighten him if you happen to notice my plight. I am going crazy with that pent up anger.

Imma going back to my maths. Differentiation, you shall be my partner today. Web media, you shall be my date for tmr. Celebrate 8th month with you. Rather than the dense ____. (I am trying so hard not to scold him or type out harsh words.)

Bye.

2010-02-07T15:26:00.003+08:00

-.- I just threw away my pair of contact lenses due to my downright stupid actions.
I took out both lenses and placed it on my hand as usual. Stupid thing is, I flicked my hand! In hope that the water on my hands would be gone. Zzz. So the contact lenses flew to god knows where. Then, I found one of the lenses. Next stupid thing I did? I mistook my makeup remover for my contact lenses solution and poured the cleansing oil straight to the lenses.

By then, I was convinced that the lenses are not meant for me to be worn again. So, tataz, my pretty lenses. Mummy's gonna buy new ones to replace ya! (:

Anyway, I've bought my new year dresses and the one for me to wear on my monthsary already! Yea baby, 3 more days. I hope you would like the present. This 8th month was especially hard to come. With everything coming in between. Luckily luckily! Okay, I will blog my heartfelts for baby when the day comes!

Tataz.

2010-02-07T00:06:00.002+08:00

Saw someone @ plaza sing today. Surprised I still remembered him. It was such a familiar face...... Mood was affected, kinda.

Anyway, went to compass, AMK hub and plaza sing w/ Vio sis today. Tired. But I found my new year clothes already. Yay!

Cut cake to celebrate my chinese birthday. Lol. I love my cake. It's strawberry ice cream. (:

Baby.

In school uniform.

Okay, gotta go prepare baby's present. Tataz! (:

Why is there this stupid feeling in my heart.
Thinking of you? -.-
How old was I when I was w/ you?
How long have passed?
How did you treat me then?
What do you want from me?
I've already moved on.
I've got a loving boyf.
Now it's A & F.
Bye.

Dear diary.

2010-02-02T18:23:00.003+08:00

Dear diary,
I am writing this with the mindset that only I read this. & that I'm only entertaining myself.

The song I've been hooked on to recently...

According to you - orianthi

According to you
I’m stupid,
I’m useless,
I can’t do anything right.
According to you
I’m difficult,
hard to please,
forever changing my mind.
I’m a mess in a dress,
can’t show up on time,
even if it would save my life.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him
I’m beautiful,
incredible,
he can’t get me out of his head.
According to him
I’m funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don’t feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He’s into me for everything I’m not,
according to you.

According to you
I’m boring,
I’m moody,
you can’t take me any place.
According to you
I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away.
I’m the girl with the worst attention span;
you’re the boy who puts up with it.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him
I’m beautiful,
incredible,
he can’t get me out of his head.
According to him
I’m funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don’t feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He’s into me for everything I’m not,
according to you.

I need to feel appreciated,
like I’m not hated. oh no
Why can’t you see me through his eyes?
It’s too bad you’re making me decide

According to me
you’re stupid,
you’re useless,
you can’t do anything right.
But according to him
I’m beautiful,
incredible,
he can’t get me out of his head.
According to him
I’m funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don’t feel like stopping it,
baby tell me what I got to lose.
He’s into me for everything I’m not,
according to you. [you, you]
According to you. [you, you]

According to you
I’m stupid,
I’m useless,
I can’t do anything right

Nice song. (: Okay, I posted 2 articles in a day. Cause I am now waiting for Vio to finish her bath. Then off to training! Whatelse? Ehm, I forgot. I have this pathetic habit of forgetting what I was gonna blog once I type a few words out. Dots -.-

Anyway, gonna holidays soon!!!!!! I am gonna work! I'm kinda excited, which explains the overuse of exclamation marks. Hahah. I'm exhilarated. Woopeedoo. I don't know why I want the money, but just the thought of money in my bank acc makes me high!

Btw diary (die-yer-ree), I have created a new name for baby. He's called aire byi. Due to the mispronounciation for some word.

P/s: Is it very bad/rude to close a conversation w/o even replying when someone says hi?

Diary ah, diary. I am positive that I'm gonna fail my UT3. Tsk. ):

Help meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!